For Nev in October, Full Moon Tomorrow…

I was thinking about Nev Tillak today, as I do every day.  Nev passed away October 31st, 2002.  Six years later, I all of a sudden need to write about it because Nev would have LOVED being blogged about. 

A friend wrote this one month ago.  Today, with the Full Moon coming, it seemed safe to re-read.

“I still think about that summer we all spent together. Do you remember when we all sat in Nev’s room and watched the film he made of all of us at the pool?  I remember he projected it on the wall next to his bed and played “Every Day is Like Sunday,” by Morrissey. I remember someone said, “it’s like we’re all dead…” Ironically, Nev was the only one not in the film. I love that song but still have a hard time listening to it. God, I am sooo melancholy today…full moon is coming… Be well my friend”

Here is what I wrote back:

“Nev used to come to LA for certain pop-culture must-sees like Coachella and The Smiths Convention.  And I always felt like his “beard” at these things because once he got there he would ditch me to go buy cool merchandise!!! Can you picture that??? 

SMITHS Convention in Pasadena. Nev gets ready ALL MORNING and is SO MAD that I am not ready yet. He said, “Jen’s cats are just like mama…stay up all night and sleep all day…”

We finally get there and it is PACKED!!! We wait in line and once inside the Pasadena Convention Center EVERYONE makes a mad rush for the middle where all the booths are. I begin to speak to Nev so we can PLAN our stroll around and he is GONE like a gunshot! I can see him disappearing like Buddha amongst the goth kids!!!!!!

Needless to say he turned up a few hours later, completely satisfied with his tshirt, magazine and vinyl purchases and ready to go!! With me driving of course :)   Later, I drive him all over the valley in search of Morrissey’s home. We also see Morrissey at the first Coachella. At night’s end, in the parking lot we begin arguing. I can’t remember the argument, just the resolution which sounded like this:
JH: “Nev, this is not even an issue anymore.”
NT: “Yes, Jenn, this is a non-issue!! A total NON-ISSUE!”
JH: “This was never an issue in the first place”
NT: “Right, Jen, this is a total fucking non-issue!”
This carries on until 2am as we drive back to LA and of course Nev HAS TO stop for fast food. “I’ll treat” he says.

To this day I have dreams that Nev and I have been talking and I wake up and it’s 5 AM and I realize that I have been crying in my sleep. Those are the times that I get that he is really gone and not just living in SF where I can’t see him this year but will see him next time. The no next time is the hardest part.”

Those whom we have loved and lost never really leave us.  They are in our hearts and minds forever.  Especially during the Full Moon and Autumn and on days that feel like Sundays…

In Praise of Rapturous Truth: Roger Ebert’s letter to Werner Herzog

Last night I finally got to meet longtime hero Werner Herzog when he kindly stopped by the New Beverly Cinema for a showing of 2007’s Encounters At The End Of The World.  WH spoke before the film and then graciously treated everyone to an unhurried Q&A session which I will elaborate on in a future posting. 

Just for today, since I am still giddy over finally meeting the man, I thought I would post Roger Ebert’s letter to Werner Herzog, originally posted on WH’s website: www.wernerherzog.com, in November 2007. 

WH dedicated Encounters At The End Of The World to his dear friend Roger and this letter succinctly captures so much of what I (and assumedly other fans) appreciate about Werner Herzog and his lifelong dedication to miraculous storytelling on film.  I hope I am not in violation of copyright by promoting this letter and passing it on.  It is a letter I wish that all Hollywood directors would read.

A letter to Werner Herzog:
In praise of rapturous truth

November 17, 2007

Dear Werner,

You have done me the astonishing honor of dedicating your new film, “Encounters at the End of the World,” to me. Since I have admired your work beyond measure for the almost 40 years since we first met, I do not need to explain how much this kindness means to me. When I saw the film at the Toronto Film Festival and wrote to thank you, I said I wondered if it would be a conflict of interest for me to review the film, even though of course you have made a film I could not possibly dislike. I said I thought perhaps the solution was to simply write you a letter.

But I will review the film, my friend, when it arrives in theaters on its way to airing on the Discovery Channel. I will review it, and I will challenge anyone to describe my praise as inaccurate.

I will review it because I love great films and must share my enthusiasm.

This is not that review. It is the letter. It is a letter to a man whose life and career have embodied a vision of the cinema that challenges moviegoers to ask themselves questions not only about films but about lives. About their lives, and the lives of the people in your films, and your own life.

Without ever making a movie for solely commercial reasons, without ever having a dependable source of financing, without the attention of the studios and the oligarchies that decide what may be filmed and shown, you have directed at least 55 films or television productions, and we will not count the operas. You have worked all the time, because you have depended on your imagination instead of budgets, stars or publicity campaigns. You have had the visions and made the films and trusted people to find them, and they have. It is safe to say you are as admired and venerated as any filmmaker alive—among those who have heard of you, of course. Those who do not know your work, and the work of your comrades in the independent film world, are missing experiences that might shake and inspire them.

I have not seen all your films, and do not have a perfect memory, but I believe you have never made a film depending on sex, violence or chase scenes. Oh, there is violence in “Lessons of Darkness,” about the Kuwait oil fields aflame, or “Grizzly Man,” or “Rescue Dawn.” But not “entertaining violence.” There is sort of a chase scene in “Even Dwarfs Started Small.” But there aren’t any romances.

You have avoided this content, I suspect, because it lends itself so seductively to formulas, and you want every film to be absolutely original.

You have also avoided all “obligatory scenes,” including artificial happy endings. And special effects (everyone knows about the real boat in “Fitzcarraldo,” but even the swarms of rats in “Nosferatu” are real rats, and your strong man in “Invincible” actually lifted the weights). And you don’t use musical scores that tell us how to feel about the content. Instead, you prefer free-standing music that evokes a mood: You use classical music, opera, oratorios, requiems, aboriginal music, the sounds of the sea, bird cries, and of course Popol Vuh.

All of these decisions proceed from your belief that the audience must be able to believe what it sees. Not its “truth,” but its actuality, its ecstatic truth.

You often say this modern world is starving for images. That the media pound the same paltry ideas into our heads time and again, and that we need to see around the edges or over the top. When you open “Encounters at the End of the World” by following a marine biologist under the ice floes of the South Pole, and listening to the alien sounds of the creatures who thrive there, you show me a place on my planet I did not know about, and I am richer. You are the most curious of men. You are like the storytellers of old, returning from far lands with spellbinding tales.

I remember at the Telluride Film Festival, ten or 12 years ago, when you told me you had a video of your latest documentary. We found a TV set in a hotel room and I saw “Bells from the Deep,” a film in which you wandered through Russia observing strange beliefs.

There were the people who lived near a deep lake, and believed that on its bottom there was a city populated by angels. To see it, they had to wait until winter when the water was crystal clear, and then creep spread-eagled onto the ice. If the ice was too thick, they could not see well enough. Too thin, and they might drown. We heard the ice creaking beneath them as they peered for their vision.

Then we met a monk who looked like Rasputin. You found that there were hundreds of “Rasputins,” some claiming to be Jesus Christ, walking through Russia with their prophecies and warnings. These people, and their intense focus, and the music evoking another world (as your sound tracks always do) held me in their spell, and we talked for some time about the film, and then you said, “But you know, Roger, it is all made up.” I did not understand. “It is not real. I invented it.”

I didn’t know whether to believe you about your own film. But I know you speak of “ecstatic truth,” of a truth beyond the merely factual, a truth that records not the real world but the world as we dream it.

Your documentary “Little Dieter Needs to Fly” begins with a real man, Dieter Dengler, who really was a prisoner of the Viet Cong, and who really did escape through the jungle and was the only American who freed himself from a Viet Cong prison camp. As the film opens, we see him entering his house, and compulsively opening and closing windows and doors, to be sure he is not locked in. “That was my idea,” you told me. “Dieter does not really do that. But it is how he feels.”

The line between truth and fiction is a mirage in your work.

Some of the documentaries contain fiction, and some of the fiction films contain fact. Yes, you really did haul a boat up a mountainside in “Fitzcarraldo,” even though any other director would have used a model, or special effects. You organized the ropes and pulleys and workers in the middle of the Amazonian rain forest, and hauled the boat up into the jungle. And later, when the boat seemed to be caught in a rapids that threatened its destruction, it really was. This in a fiction film. The audience will know if the shots are real, you said, and that will affect how they see the film.

I understand this. What must be true, must be true. What must not be true, can be made more true by invention. Your films, frame by frame, contain a kind of rapturous truth that transcends the factually mundane. And yet when you find something real, you show it.

You based “Grizzly Man” on the videos that Timothy Treadwell took in Alaska during his summers with wild bears. In Antarctica, in “Encounters at the End of the World,” you talk with real people who have chosen to make their lives there in a research station. Some are “linguists on a continent with no language,” you note, others are “PhDs working as cooks.” When a marine biologist cuts a hole in the ice and dives beneath it, he does not use a rope to find his way back to the small escape circle in the limitless shelf above him, because it would restrict his research. When he comes up, he simply hopes he can find the hole. This is all true, but it is also ecstatic truth.

In the process of compiling your life’s work, you have never lost your sense of humor. Your narrations are central to the appeal of your documentaries, and your wonder at human nature is central to your fiction. In one scene you can foresee the end of life on earth, and in another show us country musicians picking their guitars and banjos on the roof of a hut at the South Pole. You did not go to Antarctica, you assure us at the outset, to film cute penguins. But you did film one cute penguin, a penguin that was disoriented, and was steadfastly walking in precisely the wrong direction—into an ice vastness the size of Texas. “And if you turn him around in the right direction,” you say, “he will turn himself around, and keep going in the wrong direction, until he starves and dies.” The sight of that penguin waddling optimistically toward his doom would be heartbreaking, except that he is so sure he is correct.

But I have started to wander off like the penguin, my friend.

I have started out to praise your work, and have ended by describing it. Maybe it is the same thing. You and your work are unique and invaluable, and you ennoble the cinema when so many debase it. You have the audacity to believe that if you make a film about anything that interests you, it will interest us as well. And you have proven it.

With admiration,
Roger

 
   

Democrat. Patriot. Lady.

When I was growing up in the South (1976, the year of the Bicentennial and the year Jimmy Carter was elected), surrounded by Southern aunties named Novella, Ruby, Ore and Pearl and taking “White Gloves and Party Manners” classes at Gayfers department store, this was the woman we were instructed to emulate.

It wasn’t a hard sell.  If you couldn’t be a lady yourself, you were still taught how to appreciate one. 

She defined “Democrat”, “Patriot”, “American” and was most of all, the “First Lady”.  The last one. 

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The Killing of the Unicorn

August 14, 1980: Canadian pimp, Paul Snider murders his wife, actress Dorothy Stratten before killing himself. 

Stratten’s last moments were of torture and disfigurement through violent sodomy.  An autopsy revealed that Stratten’s left index fingertip had been shot off.  So it was apparent that the last gesture Dorothy attempted was to shield her face.

A vivacious Dorothy speaking to Johnny Carson.  A bit eerie, now, to hear Dorothy’s references to Snider:

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Mondo Marilyn: Marilyn Merlot, Charities and Cheers

MONDO MARILYN PART FIVE: MARILYN MERLOT, CHARITIES AND CHEERS

If you visit the home of Marilyn Merlot, http://www.marilynwines.com, you will find an assortment of collectible and highly “quaffable” vinos: Marilyn Cabernet, Norma Jeane, The Velvet Collection and the most recent addition, Blonde De Noirs, all guaranteed to make any Marilyn fan smile.

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Mondo Marilyn: Lee Strasberg’s Eulogy

MONDO MARILYN PART FOUR: LEE STRASBERG’S EULOGY

June (the month of Marilyn’s birth) and August (her death) always finds MM fans returning to Westwood Memorial, where Marilyn Monroe’s crypt can easily be found.  It is as you would imagine, covered in lipstick, from all the fans who have kissed it, and dense with flowers that are delivered year-round.  For whatever reasons, and despite being criticized as corny, people still feel compelled, 46 years after her death, to say goodbye to Norma Jeane. 

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Mondo Marilyn: Ella Fitzgerald and Marilyn Monroe

MONDO MARILYN PART THREE: ELLA FITZGERALD AND MARILYN MONROE

It is often said that the bigger the lie, the more people will believe it.  In Marilyn Monroe’s case, this seems to be the rule instead of the exception; the public is repeatedly asked to endure endless accounts of the schizoid Norma Jeane/Marilyn myth while her real and more substantial passions are often ignored. 

There isn’t any money to be made in suggesting that Marilyn was actually a multifaceted and talented career woman whose “madness” was probably a reaction to the shortcomings of the men who controlled her opportunities in that pre-women’s lib era in which she struggled to survive.  I find it curious that of all the books that have been published on Monroe, even the ones that profess to defend her, none of them have donated their sales to the Los Angeles Children’s Home in Hollywood, the orphanage synonymous with that infamous tale of the sad childhood of Norma Jeane. 

I wonder if it would surprise people to know that Marilyn considered herself a natural horticulturalist – she subscribed to gardening magazines and used her talent for horticulture as therapy, especially during the last period of her life, when she occupied her Brentwood home.  This Giant Marilyn Garden Art Wall from last month’s Singapore Garden Festival would have delighted her.

Walt Disney, the man who imagined, and then made real, an entire universe synonymous with the young at heart the world over was so enamoured of Marilyn’s effervesence that he insisted the character of Tinkerbell be fashioned after her.  Unlike the exaggerated Barbie doll, Tinkerbell’s proportions are entirely Monroe’s. According to Wikipedia, Disney’s animated version of Tinker Bell is one of the most important branding icons for the The Walt Disney Company, generally known as “a symbol of ‘the Magic of Disney’”.

Marilyn’s greatest and overlooked passion, that of equality and human rights, is finally being explored, thanks to the recollections and gratitude of Ella Fitzgerald. 

Here Bonnie Greer, a playwright and Actors Studio alum talks about her play, MARILYN AND ELLA, which focuses on Marilyn’s support of the Civil Rights Movement

“I owe Marilyn Monroe a real debt,” Ella Fitzgerald would muse. “It was because of her that I played the Mocambo, a very popular nightclub in the ’50s. She personally called the owner of the Mocambo, and told him she wanted me booked immediately, and if he would do it, she would take a front table every night. She told him – and it was true, due to Marilyn’s superstar status – that the press would go wild. The owner said yes, and Marilyn was there, front table, every night. The press went overboard. After that, I never had to play a small jazz club again. She was an unusual woman – a little ahead of her times. And she didn’t know it.”

Mondo Marilyn: Ayn Rand on Marilyn Monroe

MONDO MARILYN PART TWO: AYN RAND ON MARILYN MONROE

One of the most intelligent and poignant tributes to Marilyn came, not from me (I wish) but from the great Objectivist herself, Ayn Rand. 

I can always remember being really frustrated with my first and constant attempts to defend Marilyn as one of the greatest inspirations of the Twentieth Century.  People dismissed it as my quirk, or a need to identify with a tragic heroine.  That wasn’t it at all.  I never found her tragic.  The misinterpretations of her art is what was tragic!   

When I first discovered Marilyn Monroe her humanity hit me like the proverbial lightning bolt and I struggled through memorabilia and essays to try to succintly express what it was about her that moved me.  I would write about her to my intellectual friends only to be dismissed with a snobbish “Who is this?  Writing about Marilyn Monroe?” 

To this short-sighted bunch I proudly present Ayn Rand’s tribute to Monroe. 

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Mondo Marilyn: Defending the Love Goddess

MONDO MARILYN PART ONE: DEFENDING THE LOVE GODDESS

“I found Marilyn to be one of the great talents of all time… She struck me as being a much brighter person than I had ever imagined, and I think that was the first time I learned that intelligence and, yes brilliance have nothing to do with education.”  – Joshua Logan, Director of BUS STOP

It’s become a tradition.  Every year since I became a fan of hers, the week of August 5th (the day of MM’s death) finds me on a pilgrimage to not only defend the memory of Marilyn Monroe but to prove the myriad of educational reasons why. 

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Geddy Lee is 55 today!!

“Musical complementarity in every respect is matched by deep and lasting personal friendships” – Geddy Lee

Before I get too crazy on the Leo Birthdays this month (this is the last I’ll post, I SWEAR), I have to give props to Geddy Lee who is only 55 today.

Geddy Lee, or Gary Lee Weinreb, is often lauded as the world’s most famous Jewish rock musician. Born in Toronto on July 29, 1953, Geddy’s parents were survivors of the Shoah, which affected him greatly. 

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Happy Belated Birthday, Dame Helen

Holy Shee-ite!!!  I just joined the Helen Mirren fan page on Facebook and discovered that Helen turned sixty three on July 26th!!

Here is what 63 looks like in a bikini:

“I am a nudist at heart. I have been on many nudist beaches. It is amazing how quickly feelings of self-consciousness disappear. Of course it only works if everyone else is naked, too…”

And on the red carpet:

“It’s the creme-de-la-creme of bullshit” (The Academy Awards)

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Freedom Flashback: 7/7/83 – Samantha Smith Flies To Moscow

Samantha Smith interview with Ted Koppel:

The following is taken from Wikipedia in compliance with its copyright policy:

Samantha Reed Smith (born June 29, 1972, in Houlton, Maine, died August 25, 1985, in Lewiston-Auburn, Maine) was an American schoolgirl from Manchester, Maine who became famous in the Cold War-era United States and Soviet Union. In 1982, Smith wrote a letter to the newly appointed Soviet Communist Party General Secretary Yuri Andropov, and received a personal reply which included a personal invitation to visit the Soviet Union, which she accepted.

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Madame Blavatsky – Catalyst for the “New Age”

“Only those who realise how far Intuition soars above the tardy processes of ratiocinative thought can form the faintest conception…” — H.P. Blavatsky,The Secret Doctrine, Vol I, p.1 (Theosophical University Press)

Madame Blavatsky

Helena Blavatsky, co-founder of the Theosophical Society.

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Biddy Early of County Clare

“We thought we had a demon amongst us in poor Biddy Early, but we had a saint, and we did not know it”

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